These were also the years, Gay notes, that she began dating women. She refers to this period as her “lost years,” in which she worked for a phone sex line and lived in a number of different houses and apartments. During her time in high school, she notes, she gained so much weight in such a small amount of time that her parents sent her to fitness camp and put her on a number of diets, all which helped her lose weight but did not combat the psychological struggle she was experiencing in private.Īfter high school, Gay notes that she attended Yale University, but dropped out after her second year and moved to Arizona to be with a man she had met on the internet. She explains that, even as she became more comfortable at the school, the trauma of her childhood still haunted her and she continued to battle her impulse to overeat and indulge. In the aftermath of her rape–about which she told no one–Gay attended high school at Phillips Exeter Academy, a boarding school in Exeter, New Hampshire. Her meditations on her childhood introduce the traumatic gang rape she experienced at age 12, the event to which she traces the beginning of her struggles with eating and weight gain. She notes that her family typically ate healthy, well-balanced, Haitian-inspired meals and that her parents frowned upon overindulgence.
She was pressured to do well in school – and always did – and to live a life of modesty and moderation. She notes that she is the childhood of Haitian-American immigrants who maintained a relatively strict watch over their children. Next, Gay moves on to discussing her childhood. She ultimately decides against the procedure, but remarks that the experience of being briefed on the grotesque operation left her fearful and ashamed of her body. Her first anecdote is about sitting in the waiting room at a clinic with other potential candidates for a gastric bypass procedure. Rather, she intends simply to tell “the story of my body” (4), which includes everything from eating and dieting to sex and sexuality.
Gay begins her memoir by asserting that the memoir is not a triumphant one or a story about weight loss. The following version of this book was used to create this study guide: Roxane Gay, Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body.